Stella, my misunderstood Pit bull, I love you and miss you

How one animal can make you see life through their eyes is amazing. Stella my seven month Pit bull pup, misunderstood, but so loved. I had to give Stella up yesterday for many reasons, we have to go back to Hong Kong, our life style does not lend us to have a pet, having a pet and sending them to doggy day care when one travels is not fair, gives the dog anxiety and is not what  pups deserve. Stella came in to my life by chance, but she has brought back many feelings of how I felt in my youth. The black sheep,  had a bad wrap, misunderstood and misrepresented. Unfortunately Pit bull's have been bought by thugs, drug dealers and punks, that have butchered the dogs ears and tails to make them look mean and given these dogs a bad name. Counties banning them, insurance companies not issuing policies to pit bull owners. They have bread them to fight them to fight them and have been abused for years. My stella, full of energy and full of love! Walking Stella everyday I could see how people reacted to her, they would see her coming and they would cross the street, when all Stella wanted was to be caressed and played with.  I realized that this is how black people must feel when many white people cross the street when they see a black person coming.
How people and dogs fall in to stereotypes is beyond me, why cant people give each other the benefit
of the doubt?  Stella showed me that no matter how good people are, once you have been labeled you have to work you ass off proving that this label does not apply to you, or you can simply not give a darn if you are human, but if you are a dog or any other animal you need an advocate, and I hope I was that for Stella the short time she was with me, even though my friends and family gave me constant hell for this dog. I will not waiver, Pitt bulls are just like any other dog, show them love and they will give you love, be unkind and you will get unkind.  Yesterday my prayers were answered, a young woman came and she was a great fit for Stella and I gave her up. I cried and cried to see this little pup that will struggle for the rest of her life because of the label HUMANS have put on this puppy. I pray that Laura love Stella like I do and that she now will take the role of being her advocate. God's speed Stella, I love you.

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So much to say and so little time!

Somehow it seems as if there is never enough time to sit down in front of the computer and write my thoughts.
I am going to have to make a point of setting some time once a week to try and summarize my week.
So I will start with the Olympics, I can say that the opening and closing ceremony was painful to watch, but this will be one of the most memorable summer olympics in history for me.
Seeing the first man run with carbon fiber legs, a beautiful poised young black girl make history in gymnastics, to witness Michael Phelps become a nice, humble young man. The U.S.women's 4x4 oh my God, how amazing was that! And so many more moments that I can recall.
What was so vivid in my mind is a piece that ABC did (I think it was ABC)  did on the Chinese, how the focus is to zero in on the sport that gives out most medals and then  focus their athletes and develop them in that specific venue to make sure they win the medal count. These kids are taken away from their families at such a young age, swatted with rulers, sitting on the floor with men standing on legs of  little girls five and six years old girls crying out in pain! Someone at my home this weekend said "well at least the have a life, and most of them come from poor homes, my answer to that is that because they are poor does not mean they are unhappy! How many people do I know that are rich and unhappy! Being poor is not the equivalent to being unhappy, that is upserd. I am thrilled that the U.S. was on top with 102 metals! Just goes to show that even though these kids are dedicated beyond belief, they can still have somewhat of a "normal life" go to high school and experience what being a kid is all about!

Good to be home! Maybe?

Well I have been home for almost a week now and have gotten through most of my doctor appointments with almost flying colors, seen some of my family and friends,  gone through months of mail, paid bills and try to get my home back in order. Coming home to pool problems, broken refrigerators,  white fly infestation, puppy issues, amongst other things is a quick reality check, everything thrown at me all at once, why hold back? Trying to teach a nineteen year old responsibility and how to respect property, even if it is her parents home. In reality, I care about these things, but not really, after my rebirth on July 14th I really don't care much about anything, not the material at least, not that I had much importance on it before, but now there is a sense of appreciating what is really important and that is the gift of life and what we do with it! No I have not had a spiritual awakening, I think I was already on pretty solid ground where that is concerned, but lets say a reaffirmation of life, and the important things in my life that I want to continue or discard. My wish, is that my husband find peace in his life, his story to tell not mine, my daughter continue on her path, and I want be true and real with myself and my wants and needs. And then the simple task of remembering how blessed I am and LIVE my life. Too many of us get caught up in the routine and the rat race and forget to live and cherish where we are and what we have or don't have.. I am going to make sure  to remind myself and those around me to slow down and enjoy these moments that are so fleeting! I am also so behind on my photos, sorry! :-( I promise this week at some point I will post, maybe when I am recovering from my sinus surgery! Have a wonderful weekend and see you soon! love and light,

E